Worst moment... that feeling you get when you know you're about to come, and the second you do, you'll regret having sex in the first place.
It's all I have been having for a while. I guess Dana wasn't quite like that.
Reminder, no caffeine late at night, and then ambien, and then get talking into sex by someone you promised never to have sex again at least a dozen times (possibly as many as there have been times).
Reminder,when a woman thinks you're needy, don't joke about being needy. They don't like it. Also as a reminder, jokes that were funny when things were good are not very funny to her afterwards.
When a woman says she needs time to get over her last relationship and that it might be a bit of a rollercoaster, and so you should ignore the times she gets cold feet, focus on the word ignore. Listen to everything else. If she gets cold feet it's her problem, not yours. She's gotta fix that on her own. Or ask for help, besides give you a Catch-22 style romantic assignment. If I ignore you and tell you I want to stop, then you should keep on after me, and be patient. But If I really ignore and really get cold feet and really needs you to back off... well, if you can figure that out, you're a better man than I.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Reminders
Today seems like a good day to renew Eli's Coming. Because even when you think things are going well, it happens. And even when you tell yourself you can handle it, sometimes you can't.
Another failed relationship. Another abortive attempt at love. Another botch job. Well-done!
I told myself a long time ago as my marriage collapsed that I wouldn't lie again. I lie easily; I'm quite good at it. I realized this week that it isn't the lying. It's the weakness of putting myself into a position where lying would be easier than not.
And, sex? I can't be alone for one stinking night, I can't just stop and go home and let go for one night? She needed space, that's it. A chance to miss me. Instead, she sees a window into a needy, lying craphead who can't help but stalk everyone he dates.
Another failed relationship. Another abortive attempt at love. Another botch job. Well-done!
I told myself a long time ago as my marriage collapsed that I wouldn't lie again. I lie easily; I'm quite good at it. I realized this week that it isn't the lying. It's the weakness of putting myself into a position where lying would be easier than not.
And, sex? I can't be alone for one stinking night, I can't just stop and go home and let go for one night? She needed space, that's it. A chance to miss me. Instead, she sees a window into a needy, lying craphead who can't help but stalk everyone he dates.
What are the possibilities
1. Bush is truly an idiot savant idiot who believes his shit.
2. Dick Cheney is really in charge (also includes #1)
Bush, Cheney, all those other guys are really nut-job Millennialists/Satan worshippers who know Iraq is failing. They want it to fail. In fact, they want it to spread. It will spread to Israel and the End of the World. Rejoice!
3. Bush is not an idiot at all, but is simple and modest in his ability to assess the world. His employees are assuming he knows what is going on. This is a constant theme in "State of Denial"--major players assert a concern to one another or to Woodward; when asked if they have told the President of their concern, they say something to the effect of "I believe he knows my concerns" even though it is incredibly apparent that he does not.
4. Cheney (I guess this is a combination) is evil.
5. Or as massively and blatantly corrupt as we joke about him being.
6. Both.
7. Did Rumsfeld know shit was going down, and denied it externally? Did he repress it internally? Or did he really not know what was going on?
Are we ready to accept the Viet Nam comparisons? Remember, it's not just a criticism, it can show us ways out:
1. Body count is a bad measure
2. "Winning" is not a strategy any more than "I'm going to win this chess game" is a strategy. How you move the pieces, that's a strategy.
3. There need to be "honest brokers" bringing in real data and information.
4. People die and American kids die heroicly but that doesn't mean that their deaths are meaningful
2. Dick Cheney is really in charge (also includes #1)
Bush, Cheney, all those other guys are really nut-job Millennialists/Satan worshippers who know Iraq is failing. They want it to fail. In fact, they want it to spread. It will spread to Israel and the End of the World. Rejoice!
3. Bush is not an idiot at all, but is simple and modest in his ability to assess the world. His employees are assuming he knows what is going on. This is a constant theme in "State of Denial"--major players assert a concern to one another or to Woodward; when asked if they have told the President of their concern, they say something to the effect of "I believe he knows my concerns" even though it is incredibly apparent that he does not.
4. Cheney (I guess this is a combination) is evil.
5. Or as massively and blatantly corrupt as we joke about him being.
6. Both.
7. Did Rumsfeld know shit was going down, and denied it externally? Did he repress it internally? Or did he really not know what was going on?
Are we ready to accept the Viet Nam comparisons? Remember, it's not just a criticism, it can show us ways out:
1. Body count is a bad measure
2. "Winning" is not a strategy any more than "I'm going to win this chess game" is a strategy. How you move the pieces, that's a strategy.
3. There need to be "honest brokers" bringing in real data and information.
4. People die and American kids die heroicly but that doesn't mean that their deaths are meaningful
Friday, July 6, 2007
Blind
OK, I'm in Portland and I have many updates about me and about my thoughts about stuff...
But there's this guy sitting at the table next to me with a girl and I'm tryng to decide if he's blind. He doesn't really look at her. But he moves his head more than my impression of blind people moves there head. If he's not, he's a dick. If he is, well, I guess I am. He moves his head to look at things. I am holding out judgment. to be continued.
But there's this guy sitting at the table next to me with a girl and I'm tryng to decide if he's blind. He doesn't really look at her. But he moves his head more than my impression of blind people moves there head. If he's not, he's a dick. If he is, well, I guess I am. He moves his head to look at things. I am holding out judgment. to be continued.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Arbusto
Why has no one mentioned that "Arbusto" is a really dumb name for a company. I don't recall anyone--anyone!--mentioning it as a joke in any way during the first presidential election that Bush "won."
Yeah, yeah, it means "Bush" in Spanish. But why not call it Bush Oil? He's an American, dammit! Why translate into Spanish? But Arbusto also sounds like a pirate blackjack dealer... "23...Arrrrr Busto" Plus it sounds like "Bust." So why is anyone no surprised that someone whose biggest business venture was named "Bust" and failed is not really that good of a businessman, much less president?
Yeah, yeah, it means "Bush" in Spanish. But why not call it Bush Oil? He's an American, dammit! Why translate into Spanish? But Arbusto also sounds like a pirate blackjack dealer... "23...Arrrrr Busto" Plus it sounds like "Bust." So why is anyone no surprised that someone whose biggest business venture was named "Bust" and failed is not really that good of a businessman, much less president?
Scary thought
From Slate.com:
"The vice president initiated kidnappings, secret detentions, and torture in Eastern European prisons of suspected international terrorists. This lawlessness has been answered in Germany and Italy with criminal charges against CIA operatives or agents. The legal precedent set by Cheney would justify a decision by Russian President Vladimir Putin to kidnap American tourists in Paris and to dispatch them to dungeons in Belarus if they were suspected of Chechen sympathies."
It's absolutely amazing to me that we are relying on the restraint of Vladimir Putin (and everyone else) to be more moral than we are.
"The vice president initiated kidnappings, secret detentions, and torture in Eastern European prisons of suspected international terrorists. This lawlessness has been answered in Germany and Italy with criminal charges against CIA operatives or agents. The legal precedent set by Cheney would justify a decision by Russian President Vladimir Putin to kidnap American tourists in Paris and to dispatch them to dungeons in Belarus if they were suspected of Chechen sympathies."
It's absolutely amazing to me that we are relying on the restraint of Vladimir Putin (and everyone else) to be more moral than we are.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Moab
Hangin' out in Moab. "Borrowing" some wireless. Perfect weather....
Moab is in the middle of nowhere. There's a town here because of uranium, mostly. It's on the Colorado river, but there's a lot of places on the river, when it gets down to it. Then the parks. Then mountain biking. But the town keeps growing. I guess it's kind of like Las Vegas, at some point there's a critical mass in a settlement, when enough services and human resources show up for the town to be appealing on its own.
Moab is in the middle of nowhere. There's a town here because of uranium, mostly. It's on the Colorado river, but there's a lot of places on the river, when it gets down to it. Then the parks. Then mountain biking. But the town keeps growing. I guess it's kind of like Las Vegas, at some point there's a critical mass in a settlement, when enough services and human resources show up for the town to be appealing on its own.
Thursday, June 7, 2007
More fun w/GOP
Come on, Mitt, say it … SAY THAT JESUS LIVED IN NORTH AMERICA!
Duncan wants the Reagan Democrats back. But the "Reagan Democrats" probably have realized those jobs they were promised back in 1980 probably aren't actually going to show up. They're still waiting.
Rudy seems to believe we have a government-run health-care system. EUROPE'S OVER THERE, DUMMY, TO THE EAST.
And Huckabee is going to change that. He boldly proposes that we should also have some kind of concern about humans after they get out of the uterus.
Duncan wants the Reagan Democrats back. But the "Reagan Democrats" probably have realized those jobs they were promised back in 1980 probably aren't actually going to show up. They're still waiting.
Rudy seems to believe we have a government-run health-care system. EUROPE'S OVER THERE, DUMMY, TO THE EAST.
And Huckabee is going to change that. He boldly proposes that we should also have some kind of concern about humans after they get out of the uterus.
Why the right is screwed
The Karl Rove doctrine that when you dig yourself into a ditch, the best strategy is to dig deeper, has finally met the test of reality-based politics. It isn't going to be pretty.
These guys got away with these hawkish fantasies because they bamboozled the poor evangelicals into believing they would support public morality, and bamboozled poor conservatives into thinking they would uphold small government. Instead, they are hitching their wagons to a multi-trillion dollar quagmire abroad and don't give a rat's ass about evangelical values.
They will lose because their base is disheartened. They will lose because even their base hates this Iraq stuff. They will lose because their base will stay home in droves.
These guys got away with these hawkish fantasies because they bamboozled the poor evangelicals into believing they would support public morality, and bamboozled poor conservatives into thinking they would uphold small government. Instead, they are hitching their wagons to a multi-trillion dollar quagmire abroad and don't give a rat's ass about evangelical values.
They will lose because their base is disheartened. They will lose because even their base hates this Iraq stuff. They will lose because their base will stay home in droves.
Current GOP Candidates and other comments
Science:
Gov. Huckabee was dismissive of the idea that it should matter whether a president believes in evolution. Me, I think that a president ought to be able to pass a junior high science class. I'm happy for him that he believes in God, but I'd just like to know if he believes in, you know, facts. Rudy appears to be laughing at him. I'm sure he and his gay dogwalkers believe in evolution, no problem.
Brownback says that if "faith and science are at odds with each other, check your faith or check your science." You can't really "check" faith, which is kind of the point of faith, but whatever: the world is clearly coming to an end anyway
Sens. John McCain of Arizona and Sam Brownback of Kansas both admitted Tuesday night they voted to authorize the U.S. military invasion of Iraq without reading the formal National Intelligence Estimate in advance. Nice. So I guess they admitted to reading everything else, right, even the minor legislation.
Signs of the times
Yesterday, Bush headlined a fundraiser for the New Jersey state GOP, where donors could pay $5,000 to pose for a photo with the Commander in Chief. Just a year ago for a grip and grin with Bush.GOP officials around the country charged at least $10,000 a pop for presidential photo op, a bargain compared to the $25,000-a-flash Bush commanded during some Republican National Committee fund-raisers back in 2000 and 2004. Maybe it's just a Jersey thing. Although Bush's poll numbers are low nationally, the president is particularly unpopular in New Jersey, where his approval rating is just 25 percent according to one recent poll. In fact, Bush hadn't campaigned in the state since 2005. Last summer, the GOP relied instead on other administration emissaries like Karl Rove, Vice President Dick Cheney and former President George H.W. Bush. They all campaigned for Tom Kean Jr., who ran for (and ultimately lost) New Jersey's U.S. Senate seat. For the record, a photo with Rove cost donors $1,000, while pictures with Cheney and Bush's dad were priced at $5,000. But that's peanuts. In June 2006, donors at a Kean fundraiser paid $10,000 a piece for a photo op with First Lady Laura Bush. At least President Bush can feel good about one thing: Wednesday's event took in about $675,000 for New Jersey Republicans, not a bad haul in a state where most people would rather get a souvenir pic of the president walking out the door.
Gov. Huckabee was dismissive of the idea that it should matter whether a president believes in evolution. Me, I think that a president ought to be able to pass a junior high science class. I'm happy for him that he believes in God, but I'd just like to know if he believes in, you know, facts. Rudy appears to be laughing at him. I'm sure he and his gay dogwalkers believe in evolution, no problem.
Brownback says that if "faith and science are at odds with each other, check your faith or check your science." You can't really "check" faith, which is kind of the point of faith, but whatever: the world is clearly coming to an end anyway
Sens. John McCain of Arizona and Sam Brownback of Kansas both admitted Tuesday night they voted to authorize the U.S. military invasion of Iraq without reading the formal National Intelligence Estimate in advance. Nice. So I guess they admitted to reading everything else, right, even the minor legislation.
Signs of the times
Yesterday, Bush headlined a fundraiser for the New Jersey state GOP, where donors could pay $5,000 to pose for a photo with the Commander in Chief. Just a year ago for a grip and grin with Bush.GOP officials around the country charged at least $10,000 a pop for presidential photo op, a bargain compared to the $25,000-a-flash Bush commanded during some Republican National Committee fund-raisers back in 2000 and 2004. Maybe it's just a Jersey thing. Although Bush's poll numbers are low nationally, the president is particularly unpopular in New Jersey, where his approval rating is just 25 percent according to one recent poll. In fact, Bush hadn't campaigned in the state since 2005. Last summer, the GOP relied instead on other administration emissaries like Karl Rove, Vice President Dick Cheney and former President George H.W. Bush. They all campaigned for Tom Kean Jr., who ran for (and ultimately lost) New Jersey's U.S. Senate seat. For the record, a photo with Rove cost donors $1,000, while pictures with Cheney and Bush's dad were priced at $5,000. But that's peanuts. In June 2006, donors at a Kean fundraiser paid $10,000 a piece for a photo op with First Lady Laura Bush. At least President Bush can feel good about one thing: Wednesday's event took in about $675,000 for New Jersey Republicans, not a bad haul in a state where most people would rather get a souvenir pic of the president walking out the door.
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