Help me

Do you hate me? Do you like me? Is this a test? When you say you want to be friends, that's one thing. It's disappointing, but I can deal with it. But, then you get mad at me for having a date? Why? Are you really mad? Why? Are you jealous? Why? Is this a test? I'm supposed to sit at home waiting for you to change your mind? How does that work? Do you just think I'm a jerk and you're mad at yourself for even considering it? Or do you like me enough that you don't trust yourself and you're pushing me away? Please tell me because I don't understand!!!!